You have a long way to go before your hit bottom yet. Have some fun on the way down for goodness sake.

Me

a,

did you honestly think you could befriend p's wife and wisk her into fantasy land? you might have the charisma to win over most people/males/customers (a. they want to fuck you and paid for it) but not only are you the other woman - you are an "escort" to match! i have no problem with you career choice but put yourself in p's wife position... she is already an uptight UES bitch that clearly hasn't been fucked well in years.
i'm glad you are back home safely and maybe you can dress up for halloween and pretend for a weekend that all this hasn't happened. i'm going to be a banana. if you seem me downtown, give me a stoke or peel back the skin. i think you'll get a much better reaction from me than p!
cheers,
m.

Don't be too harsh on yourself Alexa! You have good intentions to make things better for everyone but too bad things didn't turned out the way you wanted. There's an interesting thing about human nature, you can't really shape others to your will and you never know how others will react. I'm sorry the trip turned out so bad but hope you learned something from it; both about yourself and others. Even though you are a charmer, unfortunately not everyone is will to be under your spell. You tried to do a good thing, kudos to you for trying. Take care and eat something normal for crying out loud. Best wishes! :)

I was right there with you, Alexa, trying to help fix their relationship. I was really hoping that you could have maybe lit a fire in that smoldering heap of a relationship.

I can't fault you for trying.

You are a good soul, Alex.

Ahh yes. Grey food. The comfort of introspection. Sound to me like a good thing overall. To the question of "what was I thinking?" Why think? Is there so much wrong with just doing. Adventure is not always comfortable, and often requires a relinquishment of control. Is it not in the end an acceptible passage of time? I hope you recover your balance posthaste.

Namaste

Yes, a long way to go till you hit bottom. Don't dwell on the negatives for too long...

Hindsight is a perfect science, sweetheart.

Beating up on yourself is pointless, you can't expect yourself to crash land onto the flight deck of someone else's life & start putting out the flames.

-- BritGuy

Alexa,

It's nice of you to wish you could fix their relationship, but the thing is that first of all, you're an outsider. You don't know the real story behind their problems. You don't know a thing about them, what they're like in their real lives. Having Mrs. P. dress up in an unconventional manner won't magically change her, nor would it make their problem go away.

Second, YOU are part of the problem. You are Mr. P's mistress. Their problem multiplied when Mrs. P found out about you. What did you expect her to do- win her over with sex?

No, the horrible vacation wasn't entirely your fault. They would have been miserable regardless. However, I'm sorry to say that your very presence made it a whole lot worse. It's one thing for a woman to find out that her husband has been sleeping with an escort, but to see her in real life is another story.

Uh. I could have told you that just by observing wives and girlfriends in the strip club. but bless you for trying sweetie.

Ahh yes, Americans and travel. Such a strange combination. When your people travel to foreign lands they seem intent on searching out fellow Americans and American culture rather than exploring and experiencing the culture and people of their host country. As a non American, I must say that I find this rather amusing and rather sad at the same time.

While travelling in Sri Lanka earlier this year, my partner and I visited a fishing village on the south west coast that had been wracked by the tsunami only 5 months earlier. The locals were living in abject poverty (they had no running water and took refuge in tin roofed shanties) yet remained kind and generous. Their catch – lobster, crab, fish, scampi – was prepared and served to perfection. Truly, some of the best flavours one could ever hope to experience. Unbelievably, a loud-mouthed New Yorker complained about there being no air conditioning (hello Yankie man, have you looked around you?) or a place for him to buy a burger or pizza. One wonders why he ever bothered going abroad and suspects he possibly never will again.

This is probably just me, but I wouldn't have missed the trip for anything precisely *because* it had such huge potential for major meltdown.